Life seems easy in Australia and I’m starting to really enjoy myself here. The days are getting warmer and I’m slowly finding my comfy place in this chaotic flat (full of lovely people).
As I’m writing this, I’m sitting in front of the ocean (we have some beautiful views from the appartment) and I’m listening to this song that gets confused with the dance of the trees, shaking its leaves with the sway of the wind.
I’ve been thinking a lot about my first month in OZ, what brought me to feel like in a bubble the first week in Bondi, what made me feel uncomfortable when I moved and why I am happy right now.
The thing is that I’ve gone through so many changes that I feel like a whole year happened in just three or four weeks. Time is such a relative concept!
The first lesson that I’ve learned here is that I am capable of anything. I wanted to believe it at home but right now I can proudly tell you that I am.
Lesson number two is to get to appreciate what I have at home. I feel that I’ve always been appreciative about it, but now I am even more conscious of how lucky I’ve been in my life. Knowing that I can always come back, knowing that I don’t need to stay here, that it’s just my choice, that there are people at the other end of the world who will never give me their back, who will always be there for me. Knowing all of this makes me feel comforted when fear takes over my mind.
Another thing I’ve learned is to live with fear. The fear of the unknown, the fear to make decisions by myself and to accept the consequences, fear of success and fear of failure and fear of not knowing if I am doing the right thing and fear of the fear… But fear is a state of our minds, fear is not real and so I’ve been learning to ignore it.
Lesson numero cuatro: we are all lost. It’s fun to see how messy our heads are. It doesn’t matter where you come from nor your age. Anything really matters in this cuz we all have a chaos inside our heads and we are all trying to figure out what life is all about. I think I’ve been lucky enough to find some people who are as lost as I am and it’s nice to be accompanied with people that are in the same page as you are. This way we all are a little bit lost and a little bit found in our new improvised home called Australia.
My last lesson is to enjoy the road. I need to know that not all the time I’m gonna be happy, not always it’s gonna be easy (living at 18.000 Km from home will never be). But that’s okay, because that’s what makes it exciting at the same time! I need to enjoy the little pleasures of life, I need to absorbe the energy of this place, learn as much as I can, be present, meet people and listen more.
↠ Yesterday I went to the beach with some of my flatmates and I think it was the first day I felt real happiness inside. We watched a surf competition while lying at the beach and I realized that, that is what I needed all this time: a little bit of ocean time, mixed with laughs and picnics!! And tomorrow I have a trial for a job in a lovely juicery in front of the ocean. Life seems to be smiling at me right now.
Live in the moment & make it beautiful x